askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

No. You’re the one who hides things. Youre the one who doesn’t tell me when you’ve got a problem and I’m not just going to sit here and let it pass by with a snap of my fingers. If being alone won’t hurt you, then fine, be alone.

I used past tense because you did. You’d better recall your arguments better. A fighter? Please, you don’t fight your addiction, you jump to it as soon as you can. As soon as I’m out of the picture, that gives you a perfectly valid excuse to drink again and destroy yourself. 

I’m just stating the truth, whether or not you choose to accept it is one thing. You’re not trying to work anything out. At least I face my demons. 

You stopped doing that too,you know.I was the one dumping my problems on you so you figured out you should be Captain America towards me as well.No,it’s not how it works.When I’m with you I want to see Steve,I want to see that you’re human as well,don’t expect me to make all the sacrifices.I want to listen to you and help when it’s needed,but you think it’s the right thing to do to tell everyone except me.

What if I don’t want you out of the picture?What if I want you here with me?Would you stay?You know me well,or that’s what I want to believe.You know how I hate being alone anymore and how different and relieving is to wake up next to you.I don’t want to destroy myself,Steve,I try,but if you’re not here I won’t have anything to fight for.

I know what the god damn truth is,you stated it hundred of times before and I got it carved on my skull.I can’t wash away what I did before,and everytime I’m begging you for another chance.Will you give it to me or should I stop humiliating myself?

You wanted a hero and you got one, and now you’re complaining about it? Well, at least the truth is out now. I’ll deal with my own problems since you don’t know how to share them. I don’t tell anyone so you had better stop making stupid assumptions. 

Right now I don’t even know if I want to stay with you. I don’t want to stay with this. See, you don’t care about anyone else - If im gone that’s it, you’re destroyed. See? What about Pepper? What about the team? Do you not care how they cope with this? 

I don’t see a reason to give you a second chance. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

I appreciate how you’re using past tense. That shows how fleeting your emotions really were. Fine, you go ahead and drink. You drown yourself and see how much I care - it’s pathetic and you’re letting the team down but you don’t care about anyone else but yourself. 

At least confronting me then would’ve gotten things out in the open as opposed to letting everything build up and now look what’s happened. You don’t tell me anything and you expect me to just understand and brush it off? I’ll never be in love with someone who resorts to their old ways as soon as a pillar is destroyed. 

It’s weak and not the Tony Stark that I knew. 

Hah! You imagine someone you care about turning against you and trying to hunt you down and kill you. You were the one that killed me, Tony, you were. The blood is all over your hands. 

God dammit,Steve,why are you making this so hard?Since when did we start making things more complicated?I thought we were past that phase but you make it harder and harder.You’re wrong if you think that I only care about me,but if you’re not willing to stay I might as well as do that.Being alone won’t hurt me anymore.

So it’s over?You just use past tense yourself,I don’t know what to make of this.I want to get out of this fucked up mess,make up like we would.

What if I’m weaker than before?You’re the one to blame,you messed me up,Steve.I was fine until you showed up.I admired you,I respected you,I loathed,I loved you.Do you want to take that last one away from me now?The Tony Stark you know is still a fighter,I just won’t accept this and back down.

How many times have we started over?I lost count of them,and if we managed to get back to where we were before all that mess happened I’m sure we can do it again,as long as you don’t make reference to it.

And yet again,you’re trying to make me feel more guilty.I accepted that,I accepted that everything was my fault,that it wasn’t worth it going through all that,but you just won’t give me a break.You were here again,I tried to make things work out,and I still do,and all I get from you is the blame.I want things to work out for once,but you don’t want the same,do you?

No. You’re the one who hides things. Youre the one who doesn’t tell me when you’ve got a problem and I’m not just going to sit here and let it pass by with a snap of my fingers. If being alone won’t hurt you, then fine, be alone.

I used past tense because you did. You’d better recall your arguments better. A fighter? Please, you don’t fight your addiction, you jump to it as soon as you can. As soon as I’m out of the picture, that gives you a perfectly valid excuse to drink again and destroy yourself. 

I’m just stating the truth, whether or not you choose to accept it is one thing. You’re not trying to work anything out. At least I face my demons. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

You were destroying yourself with your drinking, I do nothing of the sort. You’re selfish, you don’t give a damn about yourself or anyone else, or even the consequences. 

I’ve become cruler and colder? I could easily pin the blame on you wearing me down, when I was treating you the best I could. But you just reject me and my efforts - If you thought I was becoming like this you could have just confronted me, but no, you didn’t. You just bring it up now. So why were you even with me then? 

I’m actually glad it hurt you more than it hurt me, apparently. But you wouldn’t even see things from my perspective, you have no idea how much it hurt me so don’t you dare try and assume things like that. 

You’re the one to blame, not me. 

I don’t give a damn about anyone else?I used to care about you,you taught me some things,Rogers,that I’m hopefully not going to forget.I tried to stop because of you,and if you’re not going to be here to stop me now,I might as well as start doing it again.

It’s hard,you don’t understand?I didn’t want to end this,let alone in this way,but after everything we went through I had some high hopes for our future.Why would I want to confront you?I didn’t end up well all the other times,so shutting up and trying not to upset you seemed to work.I have nothing to lose now,right?I don’t even know what’s going on in my head,Steve,I relied on you so many times to help me get it.I thought I loved you,and I still do,but I don’t think you appreciated that.What I got when I finally managed to say it was a smile and a pat on the back.That’s not how it should have been,and I think I know a bit more on the subject than you.

I’m pleased that you’re glad with something at last,even if it’s me suffering.And you have no idea what I went through after you..after I lost you.You don’t know and you’ll never will so don’t you try to come up as the biggest sufferer.You blame me of not seeing things from your perspective but you didn’t see them from mine.

No,Captain.If I’m taking the blame you’re going with me.It’s not just me,it’s you too.

I appreciate how you’re using past tense. That shows how fleeting your emotions really were. Fine, you go ahead and drink. You drown yourself and see how much I care - it’s pathetic and you’re letting the team down but you don’t care about anyone else but yourself. 

At least confronting me then would’ve gotten things out in the open as opposed to letting everything build up and now look what’s happened. You don’t tell me anything and you expect me to just understand and brush it off? I’ll never be in love with someone who resorts to their old ways as soon as a pillar is destroyed. 

It’s weak and not the Tony Stark that I knew. 

Hah! You imagine someone you care about turning against you and trying to hunt you down and kill you. You were the one that killed me, Tony, you were. The blood is all over your hands. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

askanthonystark:

You can drop the good guy act,Rogers,I know you a bit too well now to fall for that.I’m not getting all touchy with the same comments you used to make when we met,I thought I proved myself enough for you not to bring them up again.

I’m the one that always tries to fix things up and run after you,you just don’t see it anymore.I try to make things better every time but you just won’t let me.Fine.And who is hiding?I’m standing right here,no suit on,just vulnerable me in front of you.It’s that what you always want,right?To try and look bigger and tougher next to me,am I wrong?

Fix things? You call asking me to come and apologise trying to fix things? You’re mistaken Tin Man. You don’t try and make anything better, in fact, you make it worse. Then you have to revel in your own mistakes and depression, drown yourself in drinking. 

I don’t want to look like the bigger man but I sure as hell am, at least I’ve got the common decency to bare myself to a person. 

It’s like civil war all over again. This time you’ve messed up, buddy. 

It’s a way to start,but if you don’t want to it’s fine.You’re mistaken if you think that I’m going to drop in,say how sorry I am and take everything back,I’m tired of that.Oh,did the lectures start already?Different people have different ways of dealing with things,I don’t see me complaining about yours so you might as well leave mine alone.

I used to see you like the bigger man,along with the rest of the team,but you’ve changed,Rogers.You can go brag about how you are the better person in this relationship,it doesn’t take much convincing anyway,but I know well that you left that image behind.You’re crueler and colder now,I might be the only that sees that.

Whoa,I really appreciate how you casually bring that up,pal.It’s such a low blow,you know well that it hurt me more than it did to you.I messed up then,you are to blame now.

You were destroying yourself with your drinking, I do nothing of the sort. You’re selfish, you don’t give a damn about yourself or anyone else, or even the consequences. 

I’ve become cruler and colder? I could easily pin the blame on you wearing me down, when I was treating you the best I could. But you just reject me and my efforts - If you thought I was becoming like this you could have just confronted me, but no, you didn’t. You just bring it up now. So why were you even with me then? 

I’m actually glad it hurt you more than it hurt me, apparently. But you wouldn’t even see things from my perspective, you have no idea how much it hurt me so don’t you dare try and assume things like that. 

You’re the one to blame, not me. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

Why would I want to apologise, Stark? You’re the one who started this whole mess. This is your fault, not mine. 

So it’s all about me again?It’s all right,Captain America is too big to take the blame as usual.

Oh. So you’re playing it like that now? At least I know when to take the blame, you on the other hand just reflect it on others. That’s why you hide behind your armour, isnt it, just to hide? 

You carry on passing the blame and hiding away Stark.

You can drop the good guy act,Rogers,I know you a bit too well now to fall for that.I’m not getting all touchy with the same comments you used to make when we met,I thought I proved myself enough for you not to bring them up again.

I’m the one that always tries to fix things up and run after you,you just don’t see it anymore.I try to make things better every time but you just won’t let me.Fine.And who is hiding?I’m standing right here,no suit on,just vulnerable me in front of you.It’s that what you always want,right?To try and look bigger and tougher next to me,am I wrong?

Fix things? You call asking me to come and apologise trying to fix things? You’re mistaken Tin Man. You don’t try and make anything better, in fact, you make it worse. Then you have to revel in your own mistakes and depression, drown yourself in drinking. 

I don’t want to look like the bigger man but I sure as hell am, at least I’ve got the common decency to bare myself to a person. 

It’s like civil war all over again. This time you’ve messed up, buddy. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

So Tony and I have had a little… Argument. 

And you thought of sharing this with the rest of the world.

I’ll be downstairs if you want to apologise.

Why would I want to apologise, Stark? You’re the one who started this whole mess. This is your fault, not mine. 

So it’s all about me again?It’s all right,Captain America is too big to take the blame as usual.

Oh. So you’re playing it like that now? At least I know when to take the blame, you on the other hand just reflect it on others. That’s why you hide behind your armour, isnt it, just to hide? 

You carry on passing the blame and hiding away Stark.

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I don’t know troop, things arent looking so great. 

askanthonystark:

asksteverogers:

So Tony and I have had a little… Argument. 

And you thought of sharing this with the rest of the world.

I’ll be downstairs if you want to apologise.

Why would I want to apologise, Stark? You’re the one who started this whole mess. This is your fault, not mine. 

So Tony and I have had a little… Argument.